Today I am blue. Heartbroken. I just found out a dear friend of mine from Australia has died. Monika. I've known her forever. She was magickal. And now she's gone.
I don't know how to talk about how I feel at this time. First I was angry. Now I'm feeling so melancholy. One of those quiet moments where you just feel heavy, as if you're moving through honey. I dread when the feeling returns. I don't want to realize it. I don't want to feel it. I don't want to know...that I won't ever see her again in this life.
